Wednesday, March 27, 2013

My Wedding Day

The night before my big day my three friends and I stayed in the hotel where I was getting hitched the next morning. I will admit to being a mess. I've been told by many women that you really don't remember your wedding day--because you are in shock. Thats so true! I was in a daze the day before and during the ceremony--is this really happening? I think I was scared. I mean, marriage is a big deal. Its kinda like, forever.
For some reason I was terrified that B wouldn't show up! When I left his house the night before the wedding I made him promise to be there. He laughed at me, but I was scared! Luckily all my fears were in vain. I know I didn't talk much that night with my girlfriends--everything seemed to be happening so fast all at once, when before it had seemed so far away! I didn't know what to say or do. This is strange because I'm usually, if you know me, extremely talkative.

Luckily, the ceremony was at 9:30 the next morning, so I had no time to  freak out when I woke up.
We went to the ceremony room and almost ran into the groom. Eek! I was shuffled aside by my bridesmaids and B went down to the foyer while we made sure everything was in order. We did our whole wedding with only 2000$, dress and everything, so there wasn't much to do. Then I hid in a stairwell with my mom while the guests arrived.
Right before the music started playing for me to walk down the isle I remember my best friend and bridesmaid Larkin coming up to me and praying with me. I must have been white. I was so excited and scared and happy that I was having trouble breathing. My other bridesmaid, Beth was the photographer (if she hadn't had said yes, we wouldn't have had a photographer, so yeah, she's pretty much a lifesaver and b, the most amazing person ever)
So the music starts playing and Larkin exits and I'm standing there in my white dress knowing that this is really happening. And I really want it to happen. Ready or not...
I stepped out. And B was there, waiting for me, at the end of my purple petal trail. The moment I saw him I'll never forget. A peace just came over me and I knew I had made the right decision. All those other people that I dated, who broke my heart and who I broke theirs---they were gone. All those mistakes and heartache and worry and fears--those things didn't matter. I'd made my choice...and I knew it was the right one. It was at this moment that I gave my total and full heart to GodGod had brought me someone wonderful, someone amazing who loved me and wanted to cherish me for the rest of his life...and I don't deserve him. I'll never deserve him. But this amazing God--this God who loves me even with my selfish human will had given me this man who has chosen to love me--and who loves and sacrifices and cherishes me to this day.
So the minister did his thing and I cried through my vows and tried to put B's ring on the wrong hand (hah hah) and then we were married. And I've never been happier.
And that was our wedding day.

11 comments:

  1. I don't remember being stressed at all, but most likely I was, because I can hardly remember my wedding day whatsoever. I guess that's just what happens! Good thing we didn't spend a ton of money on it! In our case, Angel was the one that was scared--he was convinced I'd say "I don't" instead of "I do"

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  2. I love this post because it shows women you don't need to spend $25K on your wedding. We planned a wedding close to $10K, but I was really happy with that considering Ryan's family is HUGE so we didn't have much choice...

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  3. I love your wedding! It describes your personality to a "T". It also goes to show that a wedding is really about YOU and your HUSBAND :)

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  4. big congrats on your wedding! so happy for you! <3

    Letters To Juliet

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  5. that is so cute, I would cry during my vows too I think. Congrats on such a sweet wedding! and I haven't read the books for GOT yet, just the show... SUNDAY! season 3!! you watching it!?

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  6. happy wedding and congratulations~ Love your hair and dress! I hope i get my perfect wedding one day...

    -liv
    http://chocolivlovelaugh.blogspot.kr

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  7. Congratulations!!!

    <3 Melissa
    wildflwrchild.blogspot.com

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  8. Awww, I loved reading this, and was sooo glad to be a part of your spectacular day! :D And I'm super glad you'll be in mine too ;)

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  9. So sweet :) Congratulations to you and your husband. God blessed you!

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  10. Oh wow, congratulations! I wish you and your husband future happiness and joy. This is a lovely post.

    xx Stephanie

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  11. Your dress, and your hair--you really do look like an elven princess.

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