Monday, October 31, 2022

100 days (8/10)


80 days, one dress. Nausea and 12 weeks of pregnancy! Huzzah, so many milestones.

I'm exhausted. 

Tuesday, October 25, 2022

100 Days (7/10)

Another 10 days have passed, and I am almost done. 70 days of the same dress! I kinda like it again. It's funny how I fall in and out of love with it. But this week I am more excited to style it and have simplicity in my life. 

I am so glad I picked a dress that will be both pregnancy friendly and breastfeeding accessible. 

30 more days!


Monday, October 24, 2022

11 weeks!

Today I am 11 weeks pregnant. Almost through the first trimester, how exciting!! Today my nausea is awful, which is weird because for the last four days it was getting better (a little) and I was hopeful it was going to go away soon. Today it's been a very intense friend. I also did something to my neck and it hurts. But we are going to try to have as normal as a day as I can. 

I vacillate between "trying to do all the things" and collapsing in my armchair. I am trying not to disassociate from my children and, though we did take three weeks off school I plan to start trying some school today. I miss it and the kids miss the routine. 

A baby means I am new mama. My body is growing a human! I am adjusting. It is okay to rest and my house does not need to be perfect every day. My kids will be okay.

All things I need to hear. I can't wait until I have my first appointment and get to see the little bean. It is on November 11th and I am hopeful for good news. 

I'm tired of the keto diet but I know it is good for my body and my baby. I will not let gestational diabetes take me over. 

It's only a season. 

Thursday, October 13, 2022

100 days (6/10)

The end is in sight. Honestly, so many of the clothes I wanted to wear this fall won't fit over my burrito baby anyway, so I have fallen in love with the dress again. These 11 pictures are from 10 different days. Happy fall! 



 I'm wearing the Brooklyn Merino Wool Dress in the color Pacific

Monday, October 10, 2022

Everything is Hard

Today I am nine weeks pregnant! This is more pregnant than 5 of my miscarriages, and I am feeling more confident that this is a baby I will get to meet and hold in my arms. Which is great!

But this is also my forth week of debilitating nausea. I know I am lucky. I am not throwing up, I am able to eat food. But wow, did I forget a whole lot about pregnancy. Also, I hate feeling nauseous all the time. It is hampering my life. I can't do anything. None of my pants fit and I have to eat every 2 hours or the nausea really overwhelms me. 

The kids are great, at 7 and 4 they can do a lot themselves. I am bothered by how much I cannot do.

I have been waking up and making breakfast and lunch first thing in the morning. That way if I am really bad off at 11, everyone has food. Dinner is touch and go. Sometimes I cook, sometimes my husband cooks. Sometimes it's toast with jam that Reuben makes. 

Homeschooling has derailed and I am frantically canceling all our plans. But I am trying to see the hope at the end of the tunnel; my nausea will end. Whether it is at 10 or at 23 weeks remains to be seen, but it does have an end and I cling to that. I remember (vaguely) that with Reuben my nausea lasted 6-8 weeks and with Becky it was about the whole time I was pregnant with a brief hiatus in the third trimester. I did blog through all this and I'll probably go back and read it all just to refresh myself. Certainly my pregnancy with Becky was much harder, as I had a very active 2.5 year old to watch and no fenced in backyard. But this one is hard too.

Anyway, our first doctors appointment is November 11th. I'm shocked that I couldn't get in earlier, but they are super booked. I hope that waiting this long will mean I am less nauseous but I am not holding my breath. 

I am also feeling a lot older. I am 35 now and I feel too old to be doing this with my body! I know people have babies much older, but I just feel so out of it and like my body is confused most of the time. I already had to go on the keto diet and I am doing well (I have gestational diabetes) with it. I am sticking to full GAPS for the most part but keeping it low carb, under 70g carbs a day.

My only food aversion is bread. How weird is that? Can't stand it, don't want to make it, the thought of hot bread out of the oven slathered with butter was one of my favorite things and now it makes me want to run gagging out of the room. Oh well. I can easily live without bread, I can't even have it on the keto diet so its great that I don't want it? 

But really guys, this is really hard.

I'm trying to share my meals over on my instagram if you want to follow along. And care about that kind of thing? 

Wednesday, October 5, 2022

Knit Hat

I was looking for a picture of this hat (it's 2024 now) and I realized I never posted it to this blog? Or if I did I can't find it anywhere. I made this hat in 2021 or 2022 for Becky. I started a green one for Reuben that I never finished and I still have it on the needles because life happens.


Little Becky is so cute. I'm postdating this hat so I can find it again if I need it!