Random Update Tuesday

I was sitting in bed last night wondering why I was so itchy...when it hit me like a thunderbolt that I was still using my tallow deodorant. I have been using my tallow deodorant this whole time. Now, I love my tallow deodorant, but that must be why I was itchy. I replaced my toothpaste and my soap right away when I suspected Alpha Gal but I didn't think of my deodorant? My head must be in the sand...

I will be shopping for a new vegan deodorant tomorrow. Today I was deodorant free and it went well. I was mostly with my kids all day and not one of them commented on any undue odors, so I think it was fine. High of 50-something today, so it wasn't sweltering. Alpha Gal sure is wild. The Alpha Gal Reddit page said that even some people are allergic to wool, due to the lanolin having alpha gal in it. Woe is me if that is true because my whole winter wardrobe is 100% wool. I will cry. 

What a day! We had an impromptu park visit after school with our lunches that was really fun. Then we went to piano. I was very nervous about taking my beautiful potty training toddler to the piano teachers house, but it went fine! She used the bathroom like a champ. Today, so far, is going well. 

I have pizza planned for dinner for the kids/hubby and bean-chicken leftover soup for me. The kids are going to watch Man in Black with pizza and I remember loving that movie when I was a kid. Excited to see what the older two think of it. I think Esther is probably too little and will be scared. 

Home-school wise today was easy. Becky used her day-off card and thus I only did school with Reuben. I give the kids 5 "day-off" cards a term, so every 12 weeks they renew. I love that they can choose when they need a break and it also gives me a break...and once they run out, they are out. They don't have to use them on sick days--for sick days we only do the Ambleside readings and depending on how sick they are they don't narrate, so we don't fall behind. 

I am reading a great book for my devotional this month. It's called You Are What You Worship by Michael Sharrett. I love it. Here is my favorite quote so far.

Sin exists because true worship does not. Sin at its core is always a failure to worship/honor/adore/obey/delight in/seek/yield to/ trust/enjoy or love the true God, while giving preference to something else.

Delightful and uplifting and encouraging. 

Right now we are having our hour of quiet time. I did some shopping on Poshmark, made an azure order, checked my bank account, ate a banana with peanut butter, and did my devotions. It was great. Esther spent the time falling asleep in the tent fort and Becky and Reuben took an hour to play video games. Actually, Becky may have listened to an audio book, either way they were quiet and it was rejuvenating. 

Also, I did not budget these past two weeks. I wanted a break. It ended up being a disaster but that was only my fault, I am the adult here. We will start over next week.

I'm making a rug with Becky. She took different yarns and chained them, and then I am taking the chained yarn and the biggest crochet hook I have, and making a circle. It's tons of fun and exciting to collaborate with one of my children on a project. Very woah moment. I love them so much.

On to tomorrow! I'm already tired and it's time to go make dinner...

Alpha Gal and Potty Training

The weather was perfect last week, but tomorrow is chillier day. It's only one day though--and I saw in the weather there is a day marked for 87f next week. What, early July? Bring it on.

Our week this week (spring break for most public school kids) is light and free and open, with Becky's piano canceled and no nature group. I have plans to scrub my cabinets. Being 40 is wild. (Okay I'm 39 but you get it...)

I was thinking (and laughing) the other day about how I threw out a pair of finger nail clippers that were not made right because middle age doesn't have time for that. I will buy a pair that work correctly and I won't give those that don't another thought. How dare they make such an inferior product.

Last night I had an alpha gal reaction. I don't know what I ate... After two weeks of not having any symptoms (because I'm mammal product and dairy free) I wonder what it was. I did try three or four new things last week and I bet it was one of those...I went out to eat at Cava. I used their vegan only menu but any dairy could have easily been cross contaminated. It wouldn't be Cava's fault--I choose to eat from a restaurant that serves dairy so...anyway, I also tried these waffle fries from Alexia and I'm thinking it might have been those? They say vegan friendly on them which the Alpha Gal Kitchen Facebook page says some people have had reactions too... I won't be having the fries again because they made my blood sugar way too high, but they were delicious. I also tried a new kind of peanut butter. 

I have been so careful with what I have been eating that to have a reaction--and it was a strong one--was not fun. 

Oh, it could also have been myself cross contaminating myself, because I still serve my kids dairy. I have regulated all beef cooking and beef consumption of products to the weekend (because I believe beef and mammal products are healthy for my kids/husband) but cheese, milk, yogurt is still the norm around here for snacks for my kids on the daily. I am super careful though...

My bet is on the Cava, which is a bummer. I love Cava.

I need to figure out how to heal myself. But that is for another day--with homeschool in full swing here and all the things I'm juggling, I haven't been able to make appointments or do any googling to see if a cure does exist. 

It's five weeks until summer break! I'm so excited.

The only other thing going on around here is aggressive potty training. Esther is in underwear during the day! She's doing so great with it.

I hate potty training. It is not my favorite toddler activity. Little toddlers can't take off their own clothes, wipe themselves or navigate a lot of toilet use...perhaps I make it harder on myself by not having the right kind of equipment for the bathroom--which is something I will look into on Amazon forthwith, but regardless--this isn't my first potty training experience (hopefully it's my last) and I still don't like it.

It has nothing to do with the child. Esther is bright, wonderful, engaging and she's taken to the potty with the gumption and zeal. She wants to be big like her big brother and sister and she wants to use the potty. Most of the time. When she isn't playing. Or distracted. 

She has had a few accidents but it hasn't been bad. I mean, she's two. What did I expect?

I just don't like the interim phase. She can use the potty, when she wants too, but I'm also cleaning up a lot of pee (even though we have potty training underwear) and she had two showers already today... you get the jive.

But yesterday she made it in the potty every time. My expectations for today were high.

My expectations were wrong. I need lower expectations. 

If I was to write a memoir at this point it my life it wouldn't be Great Expectations, it'd be...Minimal Expectations, and as a subtitle: buy lots of bananas. Toddlers love bananas. I love bananas. We need more bananas. 

In short, potty training is a lot of extra work for mamma. Remembering to potty her before we leave the house, and then taking her to the bathroom every 45 minutes to 1 hour after. Singing songs about the potty. Stickers to celebrate making it in the potty. And a lot of talking about going potty. 

I'm not complaining, I'm just being realistic. I don't like potty training, and it will be 3-5 days or uh, 3-5 months, and maybe she'll get it. 

If you've ever potty trained anyone, you understand. 

Should I just go back to diapers? No, I hate changing them and she has to get it someday and diapers are astronomically expensive. Also, she's ready. She really is. And has anyone else seen the price of diapers lately? It's like $40 a box. Insane. I should have cloth diapered.

But this isn't supposed to be a list about what I should have done in my children's past. Mostly because it would be extensive and honestly would serve no purpose. Mother's aren't perfect, but we do try.

Oh, and this is Esther's last month to be two. It's so sad! It's so wonderful! Oh, my heart. She is growing up so fast. She will turn 3 on May 1 and we want to get her a water table for her birthday. She wants a very hungry caterpillar birthday party and I think we may do just that.

My Brain the Past Week

Why is one of our books always missing? This morning it was This Country of Ours. Of course I never notice it's missing until I want to read it. But, after 2-3 minutes of hunting I found it behind the books in the bookcase. Obviously. 

Continually stopping to find homeschool material of course interrupts my homeschool flow. So do cute, amazing toddlers, bickering kids, requests for food, my own seasonal allergies, my spring apathy and phone notifications. 

At least one of those things can be silenced. I will let you guess which one.

Back to the book. For the first minute I couldn't find it anywhere. Utter frustration. What had I done with it? It's not like the kids will wander off with This County of Ours for a little light reading. The toddler, then, was suspect number one. She's always absconding with books to make book stacks, because, toddler.

Invariably, the kids wandered off while I was searching for the lost book, and started to play wrestling/loud game in their room which did NOT help. Why they not help to find book? I don't know. I don't have time to ask them for help. I am searching for book, because homeschool day depends upon book.

Finally, I found the book behind the books in the bookcase, and felt bad after blaming the toddler, even mentally. I hadn't even gotten to the point of questioning anyone...but, guilt was there nonetheless. It definitely hadn't been her. Or me, or any of the kids, but merely the fact that we have...to many books, and sometimes some of them get shoved in the back, and covered up by other books.

I need a library.

Well, a magic fairy godmother did not appear with a wand and gift me a library like she gifts teenagers dresses, so I dusted off the book, made sure my bookmarks were still in the right place, and looked around for the kids.

They were still playing a game, loudly, in their room. And, with those happy noises I realized...my homeschool day had been derailed. The groove has been disrupted, everyone needed to be re-assembled to school time and...thus I set down the book and went to get them.

They all huffed about me disrupting whatever game they started playing. Excuse me, this is school time. Even when I'm searching for lost educational material that the bookshelf decided to eat. 

Here, I wanted to skip over the part that once I got everyone assembled back into the living room, I couldn't remember where I had set down This Country of Ours. Yes, on the way back I temporarily lost the book again because I set it down in an obscure place (the top of the piano) as I was on the way back to their rooms...but lets not focus on my mom brain. Everyone came, and school was had. 

I need that meme about throwing off the Emperor's Groove...literally me.

There, perfection. 

We ended last week with Esther having a little cold. She even fell asleep on me which was so cute. She never sleeps on me anymore...I enjoyed cuddling her for an hour while she snoozed. 

Then we had daddy's birthday weekend, which was awesome. I did not get a picture with me, because I am the one who takes pictures. I have stopped feeling sad about it. I only feel resigned to obscurity at this point.

The boys went off to see that new space movie with the rock Pokemon and the spaceships and the weird sun eating space algae. 

I haven't read the book, can you tell?

So now, this week is here. I have been having a bad health week but pushing through. I hate bad health weeks. Everything takes so much more time and effort and I'm really quite exhausted. Though I am feeling better today! By better, I mean, I have energy again. I thought I was getting a UTI so I took a bunch of supplements Monday and Tuesday and maybe it helped--maybe I did have a kidney infection and/or UTI. I don't know. But yesterday, I decided to give up gluten and maybe that's why I feel better. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I hope one day I will find out. Actually, that's not all the way true. I know some of what is wrong with me. I have alpha gal and I have type two diabetes and I have some kind of gut issue...but beyond that, God only knows. 

I also made bone broth today and I have no idea if that is why I look about 5 months pregnant with bloating. I thought bone broth was supposed to be good for you.

Yesterday the kids set up some tents as forts--they love doing this in the summer! This year we have a girls tent and a boys tent. So fun. They played in them all day yesterday after school. 

Today it hailed like crazy--I have never seen it like this in central Virginia before! It hailed for at least five minutes and we all stopped what we were doing to watch. Except for Esther, she took one look at what was happening and couldn't care less and went back to watching Zootopia 2. Being two is wild, ya'll. 

How was your week?