I Shut her Toes in the Door

Today ended with me shutting Esther's toes in the van sliding door. Ugh. Can we just take a moment for the reality of that? Esther is two--and this is her last week to be two--and she had to spend the first part of her birthday week sick with some respiratory virus and now she's going to spend the second part of it with broken toes, or so my panicked thoughts were telling me as I ran towards the door with my screaming child. 

It was terrible. I got her inside and gave her arnica 1M and aconite 200 and put on her favorite movie (Totoro) while Becky fetched ice and I tried not to cry because Esther was already crying and I can't believe I shut her toes in the door. Her toes are fine. None of them are black or blue and all are still attached and everything wiggles correctly, she walks normally and she seems herself now. I let her eat her dinner on the couch and even ice cream. Poor Esther. And poor mama, it's so hard to see my little one in pain and also know... I was the one who did that, however accidentally. 

I texted Brian to come home immediately and he also checked her out. She really is okay, only a little shaken up of course but who could blame her? And all her toes are okay. I keep checking them and her and giving her lots of hugs. 

Anyway I wanted to get on here and write about how my week has been (long, crazy, terrible, and full of sick) but all I could think about was Esther's Toes so here we are. 

Thank you Lord for not letting me squish/mangle/maim her poor little toes. Also, can we go back in time and make sliding van doors Not Exist, that would be great. 

So, the week. I'll start with last week. I was getting into a good groove when I accidentally ate a supplement I had in the back of my cabinet. I was cleaning it out and I found a bunch that I was thinking I should finish up. 

It was a colossal mistake. The supplement was IGG and it was made of cow's blood. I am allergic to cow. To be fair, I read the bottle and it just said "Immunoglobulin A" on it and it didn't say anything about that being dairy. Thursday I woke up having the worst almost anaphylactic reaction I have ever had to alpha gal. I was legit thinking I should go to the ER. I tried a bunch of homeopathy and grape seed extract pills, charcoal and slippery elm. Nothing was helping. I tried crying and giving up on life. Not much improvement there, losing one's moral is never good.  

Anyway, I was miserable, my nose was streaming, the top of my mouth and my throat were completely covered in hives and I was basically non-functional. I barely made it through the day. I think I should have gone to the doctor, and I don't know what I was thinking (hint: I wasn't) but I'm still here today so that's something to be grateful for. 

For those of you that have questions, yes I did have some Benadryl however the internet could not give me a direct answer if it was dairy and alpha-gal free. The best I could see was maybe...and I wasn't going to risk my life again for a maybe. I was already in so much pain I didn't want to take something that might make it worse. But I did keep the bottle next to my bed because if things got scary it would be a great last resort as we drove to the hospital.

I was bedridden almost all of Friday. For some reason I thought I had a fever too, but surely anaphylactic shock doesn't cause fevers? And my nose/sinuses were going crazy and my throat was awful. All of that will make sense later but, right now I thought I just had an alpha gal reaction. My homeopathic doctor friend (yes, she has a degree. I actually know two homeschooling moms with homeopathic degrees) told me to take Apis, Carb Acid and Urtica in a 10M, so I did and it worked amazingly. Instant better. But I still had a very bad stuffy nose and my throat hurt and now it did feel like I definitely had a fever... but I pushed through, or tried too, thanking God that at least my hives were going away and maybe the rest of my symptoms would disappear soon. It usually takes a week for me to return to normal after an alpha gal attack, so I was just trying to move on with life and keep going.  

Saturday Esther woke up with a respiratory infection. She was miserable. We still had to go grocery shopping so I tried to be quick and on the way home I noticed...hey, I feel pretty bad too. That's when I realized we were both sick. And that was why my anaphylactic response felt so bad--I had it with the onset of covid/flu or whatever. It certainly felt like covid. Anyway, after only a few hours of normal adulting, I was back in bed trying to remember how to breathe from the elephant sitting on my lungs. I gave myself two garlic enemas, took fire cider and a bunch of supplements and homeopathy and...we all missed church on Sunday because Daddy and Reuben decided to catch it too.

Becky seems to be catching it right now, while the rest of us are just about to be done. 

Poor Becky. She thought she had escaped.

All to say it has been a week. I've gotten a lot less done than I wanted, obviously, due to the sickness and the Life Events (poor toes!) but God is still so wonderful and good and I see his blessings and mercy over my life. He is wondrous and the Earth he has made is full of his goodness and even in the midst of alpha gal attacks and possibly-covid, I will sing praises to his name.

Here are some pictures of the parts of our week that were amazing:

Esther wants to do math whenever Becky does now, so I give her one of Becky's extra worksheets that we don't use and she absolutely loves it.

She's gotten so good with the scooter!

My comfy bloomed! Also, Esther has fallen in love with drawing. Becky did at this age too, if I am remembering correctly...

And this picture of Becky and Esther with their friends at the creek is the best. 

Yes, I know I have not a single picture of Reuben--who was climbing the mountain with Danny the entire time, or laid up in bed sick and definitely not wanting me to take a picture of him. Reuben stays sick longer due to his breathing and immune system issues that we are trying to work on...

I'm hoping we can all quickly get over this cold and finish up our last two weeks of school and launch into summer. Bring on the pool! And I have plans to tie dye and start some new crafts like wood burning with the kids... so excited. 

And Esther's third birthday party is just a few days away!