- One day Reuben took a nap. I read a book for the whole 1.5 hours he slept. I've never felt more guilty over not cleaning anything in my entire life.
- When Reuben was a newborn, he would cry any time he was separated from me. I used to listen to him wail hopelessly while Daddy held him downstairs while I was in the shower. I desperately wanted him to stop crying, but I also wanted to be clean. And alone.
- Ice cream cravings are a total thing postpartum. Except my son is allergic to dairy and soy. But one day I caved had a bowl of soy ice cream because it was in the freezer and I really wanted some. I thought maybe just a little wouldn't hurt Reuben, but he was miserable for three days, and I still feel guilty about it. Two scoops of cold ice-cream was not worth it.
- Giving my kid my phone to chew on so I can have 10 minutes of peace.
- Giving my kid the tv remote to chew on so I could have 10 more minutes of peace.
- The fact that I use disposable diapers sometimes. Crunchy mom guilt is the worst.
- How much I miss my friends that don't have kids. And how little time I actually have to spare thinking about them...because I spend more time wondering about when my son is going to poop.
- No matter what I choose (like picking between exercise/playtime with my kid or cooking dinner while he cries/letting my husband do it after a hard day at work) I still end up feeling guilty over it.
- Wanting no one touching me.
- Getting some alone time to do something fun and being so tired and worn out that I spend the whole half hour trying to figure out what to do and ending up not doing anything... so much guilt.
Wednesday, June 1, 2016
Why I have Mom Guilt
Since Reuben will be one soon, I thought I would detail how much Mom Guilt I've had lately.