Things have been particularly stressful lately. It's our first week well from a cold, we ate all the leftovers and there are some foods in the fridge that need to be thrown out. So much needs to be done! My house is neat but the deep cleaning I do every week needs to be done and I have no energy. Next week is our last week of school and wow is everyone ready to be done, including the teacher! Summer break, here we come!
Brian has been working a lot and I think the stress of work is getting to him. I wish I knew how to help him manage it. He won't pack his lunch when he's stressed, and even when I make his lunch and put it in the fridge he won't take it! It's like I have to make it, pack it, and put it in his lunchbox by the door with his keys attached so he won't forget it, and sometimes I am not even awake when he leaves. It depends on how much I nursed with Esther Rose the night before. And it's not like he will just go out to eat if he forgets his lunch--he will skip lunch which I think adds to his stress and moods when he gets home.
We have a lot of work to do with owning a house--so many things need addressing and he is the main one that does things like changes high lightbulbs and puts siding on, fixes cars, mows the lawn...in the winter the lawn isn't an issue but in the spring and summer our yard is a long messy grassy tundra. I always feel so defeated by our lawn. Husband is so exhausted on the weekends sometimes he can't mow, or sometimes he is sick and then we get behind and once we get behind it's like we never catch up!
I can't mow with a baby and honestly I don't even know if I could start the mower since it's extremely old and ornery. Even my husband struggles with starting it. Anyway, he has been unhappy and in a bad mood for awhile and I am not sure if it's work, or turning 40, or something I am doing. Pray for him, and for me, because I am tired too.
I'm volunteering as a mentor for the month of May. When I signed up things were going smoothly and of course now I feel stressed, but it will be okay. I am excited to meet the lady I will be mentoring. It always goes two ways--I learn so much from them as they learn from me. It is pregnancy resource mentoring--the girl I mentor is expecting a baby! You are supposed to support them emotionally and offer friendship and encouragement. Most of the ladies who join are low income or single moms. At the end of the month of mentoring you throw them a baby shower. It's going to be so much fun. I love people and I hope I can be a help to this mother in whatever way she needs.
Esther Rose turns two tomorrow. I am thunderstruck as to how fast the two years since her birth have gone. I am a little sad that her little brother or sister didn't make it. I really wanted her to be a big sister, but I am trusting God and know he knows what is best for our family. God has been so good to us in so many ways!
I want to find a pool to join for the summer. I'd like to live there all summer long. The kids love swimming and need practice. Any lakes/rivers are too far away (closest one is 45 minutes) and I'd love to swim as much as possible. I also need to sign them up for swim lessons, hopefully there are still some available.
Today is Esther Rose's last day to be one. I made an amazing fried rice for lunch, the best I ever made. We had sausage and eggs for breakfast with a keifer smoothie and I have a chuck of beef in the crock pot for lunch. We have to go out at 4 to pick up our Azure order so I want something prepared for when we come back. I'm prepared, unlike yesterday when I was too tired to cook so Reuben made brownies and we all ate that with ice cream. The kids were thrilled, I felt some mom guilt but we all lived and here we are with the veggies and the rice!
I'm "redoing" our bedroom. I have never really decorated it or painted and I really want to jazz it up. The idea is to have a theme (our sheets/ curtains are all over the place, red a blue!! a nightmare) and I gave myself a budget of 400, spending 100 a week to split it up for budgeting. I am going to order a new duvet in a brown color, and a desk for the kids computer because it's been on a side table forever annoying me with copious plugs and wires...I also ordered a bed skirt to hide all the stuff under the bed as well as new sheets that match and new curtains, and artwork for the walls. I'm so excited for something fresh and new! Half the stuff is ordered and the other half will have to wait until next paycheck.
How are you all?
